A bird in the hand. . .

Peter Handke in his collection of essays "Noch einmal für Thukydides" (once again for Thucydides) writes about short Geschichten. In German the word Geschichte means both"history" and "story." Thycydides is of course the great classical historian of the Peloponnesian war and the father of modern historical writing. Handke's Stories treat small happenings and observations of daily life as if they were as importants as the great wars and events that we normally think of as History. And indeed as he describes it, the butterfly in his garden or the hour between the last Swallow and the first bat in the evening are the actuall great events that, in the end, will have more influence on us if we let them than the presidential campaigns, the battles in far-off lands, or the lives of the "great and powerful" men and women in the news.

One of the things I was looking forward to most about coming back to Berlin was the food--especially the Bread. the rolls here-Brötchen--are a thing of majesty and wonder. The first one I ate last Thursday made the whole flight over here worth the price. One the morning of my first full day in Berlin I awoke very early, still affected by jet-lag. From a brief workshop through the Study abroad office on photography, I knew thea sunrise was the "golden hour" for taking pictures, and, since it was an unusually sunny (for Berlin) morning, I left my apartment with my camera in hand to pass the time before the bakery opened and I could enjoy my first German breakfast in seven years. Out the door and to the left. One block down past the British embasy and then to the left again and you will stand on Pariser Platz right in front of Berlin's Propylaea, the Brandenburger Tor. Its four-horse Quadriga, placed on top the gate by Friedrich Wilhelm II in 1791, and which was promply looted by Napoleon when he invaded Berlin in 1806-and consequently replaced upon Napoleon's defeat in 1814, is a central icon of the city. If you stand directly in front of the Gate, one sees Victoria atop the Siegesäule--the victory column-- at the center of the Tiergarten. Both the gate and the column remind the Berliner of their superiority over the French. From this point John F. Kennedy stood in front of the Berlin Wall and eloquenty declared to all the world affinity for the people of Berlin and his love for Jelly-Filled Pasteries.

Through the gates and again to the left one comes to a field filled with row upon row of concrete blocks, all the same size but each of a different height, none precisely erect. When one walks between the perfectly-aligned rows, precise in typical German fashion, the ground below falls away, first to one side, and then to the other. Between the blocks it is both completely open and utterly confining at the same time. It is the new Holocaust memorial, and the early-morning shadows create a contrast of dark and light that parallels this memorial with the Gate and the tower that reminds me of the two sides of German culture that interest me so much. Both reflect opposite sides of the Hubris and glory, the neo-classic past and the stark post-modern present that give rise to the complexity of Berlin and Germany and make it worth exploring.

One more left turn and the sun is directly in ones face. A long sidewalk, trees along the road and, to the other side, an East German Plattenbau–the prefabricated apartment buildings that arose in the GDR in the 60s and 70s. These too have been rebuilt and sanitized of their socialist past until they are as invisible as the now-absent wall. Turning my back to the sun, my shadow creates an A-frame silhouette, long legs and short torso. I like the image the shadow makes so I include the Selbstporträt with the other photos.

One last turn to the left and the bakery is finally open. One Vollkornbrötchen, a Semmel, and a Sesambrötchen and my breakfast is ready. Atop the trash can is yesterday’s paper with an essay from a journalist who spent November 9th, 1989 doing tango at a Tanzabend as the wall was coming down. At my feet is a finch, which hops closer and closer, hoping that some of my breakfast will fall. I throw a piece down to her, which she snatches, and ungratefully flies away. The journalist wanted to study ecology in Mozamique before the wall fell. Instead he travels, and describes the most beautiful morning of his life in the Himalayas. The bird comes back. This time landing on the bench next to me. I hold out my hand with another piece to her. This time she bounces hesitantly forward and takes it directly from my hand.








In the tradition of Handke, this is my history of the first Brötchen in Berlin.